Saturday, October 10, 2009

delay or free time

back in Bible College we had an assignment to memorize a chapter of Romans. I chose Romans 8. It has blessed me more than a month of daily devotions. Although since then I have been slowly forgetting it. So, I'm refreshing my memory and I'm at verse 12 or so in the ESV (especially saved version :). So amazing.

"Those who are in the flesh cannot please God...BUT, you are not in the flesh but in the SPIRIT!" "To set the mind on the flesh is death, but to set the mind on the Spirit is life and peace."

Life and peace.......

anyway, these passages have given me much comfort over the last few days since I learned that Humboldt State isn't accepting new students for a while...possibly a year and a half.

at first, it was quite the blow. i felt like i had to get out of town and fast. was gonna go to portland and finish school.
i'm still praying about what to do and where to go, but i know that the mind set on the Spirit is life and peace. that seems enough.

in the meantime, i have dreams of finally going to uganda....maybe :D

Saturday, September 12, 2009

Dr. Quinn Medicine Woman

a remake of a childhood classic propaganda show ;)

Saturday, July 4, 2009

the best policy

So, I've come to face-to-face to my greatest fears. Surprise, it's not jumping off high places....or public speaking....or even loneliness.

It's confrontation.

I'm standing dead in front of it. There are some girls in the youth group that need to be talked to about what's appropriate to where at youth group....which basically means just not bikinis. Poor guys :(

Anyway, there's also this other girl who I used to really get along with, then something happened and she won't even make eye-contact with me. Right now she's becoming a good source of turbulence in the youth group which ain't fun. So, Paul asked me if I could try to reconnect with her and just pour into her life. She's the kind of girl who pretty much only hangs out with the guys and has a rough time at home.

Gee whiz, I couldn't imagine being any more out of my comfort zone than all this...if I could get some serious prayer back-up, that would be swell.

Tuesday, June 16, 2009

cane spiders and dark rooms




Last night as I was about to go to sleep, a cane spider ran across my floor, throwing me into decision time. Frantically search for and kill said spider or seek another place for rest. The thought of simply abiding with a mini-tarantula under my bed was not brought up. I stood there, dumb-founded for quite a while-thinking through my options, staring at the bed hiding my little friend. In the end, I snuck into my friend Lynette's room and asked if I could sleep in her bed...yes, I definitely felt like a 4-year old but hey....I was a.o.k with that

So after living with limited electricity for a few months here I've mastered the art of doing many everyday things in almost complete darkness. Bathroom activities....shower, shave, brush teeth....I've walked along every path with nothing more than a cell-phone lighting the way...downhill....uphill...with friggin frogs moving around in the bushes scaring me into some desperate prayers ever now and again for safety :) I always chuckle to myself about a jike no one seems to get about it being a walk of faith.

Anyway, I wonder at the new girls here-not feeling comfortable doing much of anything without a lantern with them all the time. I'm realizing now that its because I KNOW this campus like I know just about anything. I've done it all so many times in light and dark that it hardly matters. I am fully familiar with the territory. I wonder it thats how it is when we go through trials-times of spiritual darkness when we can't see more than the two feet ahead God is letting us see. Can we trust Him because we have known Him faithful in brighter times....and even darker times? Will we stand upon the promises of His Word because we have seen them in the daylight? How diligent we should be with the mid-days of our walk with Christ-when everything is hunky-dorey :) For if we slack with the blessings, how can we hope to find our way out in the darkness: But He is faithful, praise the Lord!

Saturday, May 9, 2009

The purpose of law and grace according to Romans

How can the child who willingly disobeys his parent’s clear commands and runs away from home ever expect grace when he sees the folly of his ways? How can he anticipate anything but judgement knowing that he has gone against all his parents’ wishes and abandoned the loving home he came from? How much less can a man expect grace from the loving and just Creator whom he has sinned against in every possible way at every possible opportunity? The book of Romans is the authority in telling man how it is possible that man can be reconciled to the Lord and this paper will deal with the purpose of law and grace in each person’s life.
Before a man can understand and appreciate the grace of the Lord, he must see his own inadequacy. Like the prodigal son, he must see how far he is from his father’s heart, how he has transgressed against his commands and how he is deserving of nothing but slavery. (Lu. 15:17-19) The law serves as a mirror to reveal this darkness of his own heart in contrast to the light of God. Without it, man sees himself in comparison to the depravity of mankind around him and declares himself ‘okay’. The law of God however is the perfect ruler announcing the unflinching requirements of God. (Ro. 7:12)
The Bible clearly teaches that each man has the revealed will of God for perfection in his conduct towards Him and his fellow man within his conscience. (Ro. 1:14) Furthermore, it teaches that not a single person living stands up to the standards of the law and by it no man can be proclaimed as just. (Ro. 1:13) What is the result of this falling short? Can God allow the soul who falls short to simply live and let live? Can He, against His very nature, dare to permit him to enter a new heaven and new earth and thereby defile a whole new creation? No because God, being just and holy, must judge each man according to his life and works. (Ro. 6:23, He. 9:27)
We know that only the man who sees his horrid state before God and His rightful judgement on him as a sinner damned, can accept the grace of God. (Ro. 7:7-9, Ga. 3:24) He must humble himself before the Lord and ask for forgiveness. But there has to payment made for sin. There has to be a basis for forgiveness. Without the sacrifice of Christ, taking our sin upon Him, there is no hope of justification or right standing with God. (Ti. 3: 4-7) Through this provision of an offering, he can receive the grace of God.
Grace is often defined as receiving what we don’t deserve from God. Because God is gracious He reveals a man’s sinful state, paves the way for salvation, points to it, and lets him lean on Him the whole way home. He offers this covenant of grace to all who will receive it. (Ro. 3:24, 5:15) Under this ‘contract’, man is held up by the beautiful grace of God. Knowing we could never measure up to His standard of holiness, Christ completed that standard for us and presents us in His own righteousness before the Father. Through the grace of God, taken by faith, we are granted peace with God. (Ro. 5:2)
Once a man is in the salvation of Christ, grace continues to work in his life until the day he is found perfected in the presence of the Lord. There are numerous ways that grace takes effect. One of the biggest out-workings of grace in a man’s life is the good works that come about by necessity of being a child of God and being a living temple of the Holy Spirit. Paul received grace to be an apostle and he writes boldly because of the grace given to him. (Ro. 1:5, 15:15) The believer has gifts given in grace to build up the brethren and is given sufficient grace to be continually abounding in good works to those outside the church as well. (Ro. 12:6) The simple grace of God is needed for every single thing a Christian does. Without it, he relies on his own resources to accomplish the will of God; the fruit of which cannot be accepted. (Ro. 8: 7,8)
Probably the biggest effect of grace as it relates to our relationship with God is the way it paves for us to have communion with God. Again, because of the sacrifice of Christ trusted in by faith, we are made right with God and cleansed by His blood. But through the marvelous grace of God, we are able to draw to Him and enter into a deep personal relationship with Him. (He. 4:16) It is even His grace that pulls us to be in fellowship with Him, to seek Him and spend time with Him; it is even His grace that grows our knowledge of Him and molds us more and more into His image.
It is amazing to me to see how God has orchestrated each part of His gospel to bring Him glory as the Creator, Savior, Redeemer. How He established the law both in our hearts and through Moses to bring knowledge of sin and judgement. How He provided Himself the propitiation and substitute to take our punishment. How He brought this truth to each of us, offering salvation and vital relationship to Himself for eternity. How all this was brought about because He is our gracious Father. “How can I keep from singing Your praise? How can I ever say enough? How amazing is Your love!”

Tuesday, March 24, 2009

maggots in the trash can

so i have this here friend named sayer and she told a really neat story this morning at devos



we have a HUGE fly problem in the kitchen here. which isn't too surprising since we cook under a tent :) anyway, she saw a whole bunch of maggots in one of our trash cans and became determined to get rid of them. she tried bleach and a whole bunch of other cleaning products trying to kill them. nothing worked. finally, she put gasoline over them and lit them on fire.

"brethren, if anyone among you wanders from the truth, and someone turns him back, let him know that he who turns a sinner from the error of his way will save a soul from death and cover a multitude of sins." James 5:19,20

if she wouldn't have killed those maggots, we would've had so many more flies to deal with within days. if we see one of our brothers in sin and we turn him away, we save (by the grace of God) him from so much more heartache in the future.

thanks sayer!!!! so encouraging :D

Monday, February 9, 2009

abiding 101

the whole concept of abiding has always tripped me out

that God desires us to live lives in obedience to His Word

then gives us the desire to do so

then gives us the grace to do so

then rewards us with His presence

and makes our joy full

how does that even work? i was praying about it this morning....and how can we even think to venture from that point of fellowship with God....

i don't know....

"prone to wander, Lord I feel it; prone to leave the God I love
here's my heart Lord, take and seal it; seal it for Thy courts above"

Friday, February 6, 2009

a lil' update from kauai

soooooooo....it's been longer to get to write a blog than i anticipated....but today is absolutely perfect because i get to get my laundry done and steal internet at the same time!!!!
and it's 2pm and there's a random rooster going off right now

?????

anyway, i'm loving life
i love getting up in the morning....walking out of my tent and doing my devotions as the sun is rising right in front of me and the flock of goats is slowing lining up and migrating to the other side of the field.
i love hanging out with girls all day who seriously love the Lord and have committed their lives to Him in a huge way
i love being convicted in class from romans
i love the sun.....with showers throughout the day
i love having to listen to chuck smith....he's brilliant

one thing i miss is listening to music not from headphones....and playing my guitar and singing as loud as i want to
but right now i feel so blessed to just be a student at Bible College and enjoy what God has for me here!
so psyched!

and yes, the food is great

and here's a video from our lil' trip to a nearby beach



it was insidiously dangerous getting down to this beach....no joke
that kauai mud ain't messin around
combined with slick shoes....haha
and an intense slope
eek
but it was fun
and then we got some chips ahoys

Tuesday, January 27, 2009

a leap in the dark

i was listening to dave hunt the other day and he mentioned this philosopher guy who on his death bed said that he was about to take a leap in the dark
to which dave comments on the pure insanity of doing that....seeing as how you would never do that in this life

anyway, i'm tempted to feel like this whole bible college thing is a leap in the dark
but the cool thing about walking with the Lord....is that it doesn't really matter what's in my line of sight :)

will be landing in kauai in about 24 hours!!!

and here's footage of jeremiah's first roller coaster!

Monday, January 5, 2009

some of my favorites

i won't even pretend to be a music critic....but i absolutely love sharing music that i like....so, here are some albums that i fell in love with this year sorted by my funky categories

albums i was totally counting down the days to
copeland-you are my sunshine i can't deny it....i love the effeminate singing voices. they have a special place in my heart. and the girl who sings on some of the songs is amazing!!!! rae kassidy klagstead....or something like that
jonezetta-cruel to be young good and fast sing-at-the-top-of-your-lungs-rock
brooke waggoner-heal for the honey she's crazy amazing...piano popaliciousness and awesome voice
house of heroes-the end is not the end some more good rock...some of the songs completely crack me up

some artists i found on itunes and pandora
chris bathgate good ole' folk....love "yes, I'm cold"
lydia-illuminate this is a cd i've listened to almost every day for a month
radiohead-in rainbows okay, i know they're huge....but i wasn't conscious in the 90s and i love this cd especially "reckoner"
eisley-room noises sweet popness with good melodies and lyrics
the hush sound-like vines love love love "don't wake me up"

rock on!

countdown to tent-living

exactly 22 days till tent-living...19 days to hawaii....and 11 more days of work (the last one seems inconceivable)

soooooo, i'm pretty psyched

i'm going to be in hawaii in less than three weeks....eeeeeeek! i have officially put in my notice at work....i have paid my bed deposit. i'm all in.

hmwahahaha

so, anyone out there reading this, be praying for a very part-time job...couple hours a week...shtuff like that :)

anyway, i'm just so excited to see what God is going to do!!!

dreams do come true


okay, so i would never say i'm a good drummer...i've been given the compulsive desire to bang on things to a certain rhythm in my head since i can remember.....
and i've always wanted a drum set
and now there's one in my room!!!!!! woooooohoooooooo

it's not mine but who cares!!!!

anyway, so new inspiration to play has come upon me and i cannot resist....fortunately, i am now residing in the garage downstairs and am not too sound invasive ;)

Thursday, January 1, 2009